Why is life so difficult to manage? And why am I doing such a poor job of it?

Workout and eat right to stay in good physical shape. Read all the things to keep the mind sharp. Go to church, pray, and meditate for spiritual health and balance. Manage dr appointments, eye exams, dental cleanings, annual mammograms and physicals. What do you mean I’m supposed to have had a colonoscopy already?!

Why is there so much to manage and juggle?Regular home maintenance (overwhelming!). Constant repairs. Yard work. Housework.

And WHY is there so much LAUNDRY?! I mean, it’s just me. I’m only trying to keep up with myself. There are no kids to chase after (and keep alive 24 hours a day. Every. Single. Day. !)

Some days it just feels like it’s all too much.

From time to time I’ll have someone say to me “It just seems like you’ve got it all figured out.”

Ummm. What? Are you kidding? I’m a walking trainwreck.

Well, ok. Maybe not quite that bad. But – most days I feel pretty clueless. Like a child who’s been released in the wild and left to her own devices. I don’t know what I’m doing, and I haven’t figured Anything out.

Except this one thing:

I know that every single morning I have to make a decision to get out of bed. I have to make a choice to either make it a good day or just count it as a day lost. I have to choose to live in gratitude and seek out joy or steep myself in self-pity and feed my bad attitude. It is a choice. Every day.

Some days I choose well. Some days I pull the covers over my head and vow to try again tomorrow. But I know- as long as I’m here, it is MY choice to make.

I hope most days you are able to choose well for yourself. And on the days you are unable to, I hope you make a promise to yourself to try again tomorrow.